Ooh, Lolli-Lollipop

So the news isn't perfect, but it could be worse. After my round of shots and blood draws to celebrate my cancer-versary, my doc informed me that my thyroid levels aren't exactly what they should be. The radiation that left me disjointed from the human race last year was supposed to obliterate any and all thyroid tissue (and thus, cancer) from my body. So we were looking for a big goose-egg on the test, but it came back at 0.5. She said that a 2.0 would have won me a full body scan, but a 0.5 earned me a trip out the door with my screaming kids. My doc said she really wasn't worried though, and that my levels could still be going down. She wanted to schedule an ultrasound to see if she could pinpoint what might be going on just for kicks. Sooo, is it cancer or healthy thyroid tissue left? Where's that carnival weight-guesser guy when you need him?

So while my boys played Romper Room in the exam room, my doc slid her fingers across my neck to search for nodules. While Rowen was "playing" with Lane and making him scream bloody murder, I was secretly hoping she'd just choke me and take over custody of my precious brood. Instead she said she felt "something" in my neck that felt like a nodule. Not exactly the blast from the past I was looking for. She tried to make me feel better by saying it probably wasn't anything to worry about, but I've been there, done that, and got the t-shirt to boot.

It's likely that all this adds up to nothing, and I hope it does. It's not easy to lay your head on the pillow at night wondering if you still have cancer though. And while I know it is an easily treatable cancer, the treatment is not something I want to repeat. You don't exactly want to blast your body with a double dose of radiation for the heck of it. Yeah, not so much.

Feeling a little dejected, I left the doctor's office sticking lollipop #4 into Lane's pie-hole (yes, I will gladly admit to 4, and furthermore praise the Lord for the all-powerful lollipop!). I know in the end it won't be a big deal, but I just wish my doctor could have given me better news and closed this chapter of my life. Let's hope it's nothing another lollipop won't fix.