I guess the title says it all. This is a very late post, but a few weeks ago I got blood test results back that put me in the clear for having any cancer remaining. It was a bit anti-climactic because I was living under the assumption that God had already put me in the clear. Turns out I was right. There is a first for everything.
The thyroglobulin level was undetectable. Translation: the radioactive iodine pill not only obliterated half my brain power for a few weeks but it also got the cancer. I think that makes the RAI pill my best friend for now.
Funny thing is that I don't know what to do with myself now. It was a whirlwind diagnosis followed by lightening speed treatment that seemed to put a quick and dirty end to my cancer journey for now. I know there will be years to come of tests and check-ups based on the possibility of an encore presentation, but for now I am counting my blessings and wondering what to do in the meantime.
It's great news, of course. Kind of like, "Hey honey, we're having a baby!" Sound of giant "thud" from my husband hitting the floor. But it's a lingering thought that doesn't seem to get erased by the words "cancer free." It has always been surreal, but uncomparable to others who have been through cancers of much graver circumstance. Even so, anything with the word "cancer" attached to it is a hard pill to swallow.
So what do I do with that now? I was barely getting my head wrapped around this idea and now the picture has changed. I think God had a lot for me to learn and I did. I think there will be more to come, but for now I will rest assured that He has my back. He always has and always will. Even if the encore presentation makes a return, I will still trust in Him.
Thank you, Lord, for your act of grace and healing. I owe another day to you. Again.
